Well...After everything happened to me through 2 weeks, there were a lot problems changed my thoughts, my mood and my studying grade. I dropped many classes and missed three or four tests. Oh my God, Hope everything will be OK finally.
The newest in-class writing got 90%. It's not the highest score, anyway it's still the first highest score that I feel satisfied with it. Because I spent a lot of time and attempted to do that topic "TO OVERCOME THE FEAR OF LONELINESS". It proved that how much I try is how much I get. I thought maybe Rachael doesn't like me, cause I often asked some stupid questions and didn't follow her guide. I guess she must have think this student is kind of ridiculous. Whereas, she tried to help my weakness in writing eagerly. And finally, I found I improved it.
After 2 months, I had not much friends ( Also I don't expect to), but I had some fun with them like : Ami, Hao Shuay, Akina, Ally, Minami. They are so lovely and kind to me though sometimes it's hard for us to understand each other.
During this weekends, I was so happy that I didn't go out for the trip or activiy trip. I was at home all day...But I was so happy. I chatted with my friends in my country. Someone broke my heart; but now, it released. Someone lifted me up and took me to the seventh heaven. I just hope everyday in here, I can have days like that.
Sunday, May 18, 2008
Wednesday, May 7, 2008
BORING DAYS
haizzzz...
How many boring weekends I will have ??
I hate to stay at home at weekends, I hate to sit alone in my room to wait for something. I hate to be alone like that. Is that weekends?
I want to wander around, I want to play sport, have some parties...However I can not do it alone.
Next quarter, I will make myself busy, I intend to study Chinese and Spanish besides ESL. In addition, I want to study about Music and Art, I'm still unsure what I will study about Music and Art. I want to improve playing piano, and know more theory and history about music, kinds of music, and music culture from many countries. Also, I want to study Art, like painting oil and acrylic, drawing and sketching, water color painting and calligraphy...
Otherwise, I dont have much time to study all of this, so I think maybe I will study the introduction about ART and intermediate of Music. Well, studying will make me forget my feeling, homesick, and can release my sadness and can help me sleep easily. I'm suffering of lacking sleep. I'm tired everyday and feel empty. I don't know how to improve myself, how to get all of it through. It made me desperate !!
I want to be drunk to forget all of the memories that broke my heart. I want to be drunk to sleep forever, and never wake up !!
Do I deserve to have such a kind of this life?
How many boring weekends I will have ??
I hate to stay at home at weekends, I hate to sit alone in my room to wait for something. I hate to be alone like that. Is that weekends?
I want to wander around, I want to play sport, have some parties...However I can not do it alone.
Next quarter, I will make myself busy, I intend to study Chinese and Spanish besides ESL. In addition, I want to study about Music and Art, I'm still unsure what I will study about Music and Art. I want to improve playing piano, and know more theory and history about music, kinds of music, and music culture from many countries. Also, I want to study Art, like painting oil and acrylic, drawing and sketching, water color painting and calligraphy...
Otherwise, I dont have much time to study all of this, so I think maybe I will study the introduction about ART and intermediate of Music. Well, studying will make me forget my feeling, homesick, and can release my sadness and can help me sleep easily. I'm suffering of lacking sleep. I'm tired everyday and feel empty. I don't know how to improve myself, how to get all of it through. It made me desperate !!
I want to be drunk to forget all of the memories that broke my heart. I want to be drunk to sleep forever, and never wake up !!
Do I deserve to have such a kind of this life?
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