Well...After everything happened to me through 2 weeks, there were a lot problems changed my thoughts, my mood and my studying grade. I dropped many classes and missed three or four tests. Oh my God, Hope everything will be OK finally.
The newest in-class writing got 90%. It's not the highest score, anyway it's still the first highest score that I feel satisfied with it. Because I spent a lot of time and attempted to do that topic "TO OVERCOME THE FEAR OF LONELINESS". It proved that how much I try is how much I get. I thought maybe Rachael doesn't like me, cause I often asked some stupid questions and didn't follow her guide. I guess she must have think this student is kind of ridiculous. Whereas, she tried to help my weakness in writing eagerly. And finally, I found I improved it.
After 2 months, I had not much friends ( Also I don't expect to), but I had some fun with them like : Ami, Hao Shuay, Akina, Ally, Minami. They are so lovely and kind to me though sometimes it's hard for us to understand each other.
During this weekends, I was so happy that I didn't go out for the trip or activiy trip. I was at home all day...But I was so happy. I chatted with my friends in my country. Someone broke my heart; but now, it released. Someone lifted me up and took me to the seventh heaven. I just hope everyday in here, I can have days like that.
Sunday, May 18, 2008
Wednesday, May 7, 2008
BORING DAYS
haizzzz...
How many boring weekends I will have ??
I hate to stay at home at weekends, I hate to sit alone in my room to wait for something. I hate to be alone like that. Is that weekends?
I want to wander around, I want to play sport, have some parties...However I can not do it alone.
Next quarter, I will make myself busy, I intend to study Chinese and Spanish besides ESL. In addition, I want to study about Music and Art, I'm still unsure what I will study about Music and Art. I want to improve playing piano, and know more theory and history about music, kinds of music, and music culture from many countries. Also, I want to study Art, like painting oil and acrylic, drawing and sketching, water color painting and calligraphy...
Otherwise, I dont have much time to study all of this, so I think maybe I will study the introduction about ART and intermediate of Music. Well, studying will make me forget my feeling, homesick, and can release my sadness and can help me sleep easily. I'm suffering of lacking sleep. I'm tired everyday and feel empty. I don't know how to improve myself, how to get all of it through. It made me desperate !!
I want to be drunk to forget all of the memories that broke my heart. I want to be drunk to sleep forever, and never wake up !!
Do I deserve to have such a kind of this life?
How many boring weekends I will have ??
I hate to stay at home at weekends, I hate to sit alone in my room to wait for something. I hate to be alone like that. Is that weekends?
I want to wander around, I want to play sport, have some parties...However I can not do it alone.
Next quarter, I will make myself busy, I intend to study Chinese and Spanish besides ESL. In addition, I want to study about Music and Art, I'm still unsure what I will study about Music and Art. I want to improve playing piano, and know more theory and history about music, kinds of music, and music culture from many countries. Also, I want to study Art, like painting oil and acrylic, drawing and sketching, water color painting and calligraphy...
Otherwise, I dont have much time to study all of this, so I think maybe I will study the introduction about ART and intermediate of Music. Well, studying will make me forget my feeling, homesick, and can release my sadness and can help me sleep easily. I'm suffering of lacking sleep. I'm tired everyday and feel empty. I don't know how to improve myself, how to get all of it through. It made me desperate !!
I want to be drunk to forget all of the memories that broke my heart. I want to be drunk to sleep forever, and never wake up !!
Do I deserve to have such a kind of this life?
Sunday, April 27, 2008
GAZING OUT MY LIFE
My own writing:
Time on Bus is getting shorter and shorter to me
The first time I went to school and backed home by BUS, I felt so tired and asleep, I hate bus. Gradually, I go to school and back home by bus, I have more time to contemplate Seattle's scence. Besides, I have more time on my own to look back myself. And time's getting shorter and bitter to me.
Sky's still blue, wind's still blowing, but someone's changing, something's different. They're not staying with me like this scene. You're not with me at that time.
I 've never thought I would have this day - all alone. Day's passing through but we can't go through. Why I am here? Why I'm still here without you?
I've never felt this way before, everything that we had remind me of you. Did you count these steps I took, are you still missing me every night?
The hardest days are weekends, cause what I have is just me alone. I don't wanna wake up, go anywhere, or do anything, because It's all meaningless to me. Am I weak? Am I doing stupid? Someone tells me...I need you by my side, please don't go away. I'll hold on to it, don't pass me by !!
I woke up this morning, I the first thing I think about is YOU. I played some songs and tried to write something inside my mind, I tried to write you a song that someday...oneday I'll come back and rock it on with you. Will you hold on to it with me?
Wednesday, April 23, 2008
Social Attitude to homosexual
this is my writing !!
There are vary greatly in different culture and different country's history, also attitude toward sexual desire and relationship.
Yesterday, I made a poll of SOCIAL ATTITUDE TOWARD HOMOSEXUAL. There is nothing to be surprised that a lot of people don't approve Homosexual, but finally I found some who are really opened mind and have good attitude to them. However, the statistics show that 40% approves Homosexual relationship and marriage, and 60% disapproves. So It's quite hard to accept a girl turns to be a boy especially to family and relative, but I think that's not their choice. Who wants to be monstrous in social? Who wants to be abandoned in family? Surely the answer is noone wants to be like that. They are still human - being, they should have an equal right to live, to work, to marry and to be happy. That's unfair when we have a bad attitude toward them, and it's worse when we completely seperate them in social.
I want to find some ways to give them a chance to be free in love, to be happy and life. And I hope the world will be changing sooner.
In my country , there are many Homosexual couples that must be broken up or they will be kicked out of their family. And their parents will never listen to their real feelings, parents will forbid their love and relationship. I have a friend in this case. She's my good friend, she found she is a lesbian, surely she knows her parents will break down when they know the real person she is. She tried to hide and live the way they want, do the thing they want, and now she's not living for herself, she lives for her parents' life. She's depressed, forlorn and stressed seriously . IT's impossible for her to marry the one she loves, and she said: " the only thing that I can do for myself only after my parents's gone. I will marry the one I truely love when my parents's gone".
According to Internet's report, Vietnam has only 13% of people to accept Homosexual relationship, instead of Germany has 83%, France has 77%, United Kingdom has 74% and Italy has 72%. But It's still better than in Africa, they have he lowest percentage of people to accept such a kind of relationship, with Kenya is 1%, Nigeria is 4%.
Anyway, I still find 2 interesting ones that support that relationship , and one said: "If I saw some gays and lesbians kissing on the street, I would tell them: be successful. I think world should be sympathized and generous to them, they didn't do anything wrong".
There are vary greatly in different culture and different country's history, also attitude toward sexual desire and relationship.
Yesterday, I made a poll of SOCIAL ATTITUDE TOWARD HOMOSEXUAL. There is nothing to be surprised that a lot of people don't approve Homosexual, but finally I found some who are really opened mind and have good attitude to them. However, the statistics show that 40% approves Homosexual relationship and marriage, and 60% disapproves. So It's quite hard to accept a girl turns to be a boy especially to family and relative, but I think that's not their choice. Who wants to be monstrous in social? Who wants to be abandoned in family? Surely the answer is noone wants to be like that. They are still human - being, they should have an equal right to live, to work, to marry and to be happy. That's unfair when we have a bad attitude toward them, and it's worse when we completely seperate them in social.
I want to find some ways to give them a chance to be free in love, to be happy and life. And I hope the world will be changing sooner.
In my country , there are many Homosexual couples that must be broken up or they will be kicked out of their family. And their parents will never listen to their real feelings, parents will forbid their love and relationship. I have a friend in this case. She's my good friend, she found she is a lesbian, surely she knows her parents will break down when they know the real person she is. She tried to hide and live the way they want, do the thing they want, and now she's not living for herself, she lives for her parents' life. She's depressed, forlorn and stressed seriously . IT's impossible for her to marry the one she loves, and she said: " the only thing that I can do for myself only after my parents's gone. I will marry the one I truely love when my parents's gone".
According to Internet's report, Vietnam has only 13% of people to accept Homosexual relationship, instead of Germany has 83%, France has 77%, United Kingdom has 74% and Italy has 72%. But It's still better than in Africa, they have he lowest percentage of people to accept such a kind of relationship, with Kenya is 1%, Nigeria is 4%.
Anyway, I still find 2 interesting ones that support that relationship , and one said: "If I saw some gays and lesbians kissing on the street, I would tell them: be successful. I think world should be sympathized and generous to them, they didn't do anything wrong".
Sunday, April 20, 2008
Responsible Student Essay Draft 2 Example
(http://dlancaster.wordpress.com/2008/01/24/responsible-student-essay-draft-2-example/)
Responsible Student Essay Draft 2 Example
An area that needs vast improvement in my book swallows responsibility. I need to be more responsible by meeting my daily reading requirement. I loathe reading. The first step involves changing my attitude about reading. Help! What? I have to learn to feel differently about reading, yikes! I guess I should make an appointment with my language arts teacher to pick her brain on the matter. If I create a motivational chart at home, I reward myself following the thirty minute reading expectation. Eventually, the time spent reading may seem like a reward in itself.
I realize that reading daily enhances my skills as a reader, which leads to reaching the responsibility of a seventh grade language arts student. If I use my resources, such as my teacher, peers, and the library, my attitude about reading might change. My teacher and peers provide recommendations and act as springboards for discussion. If I make an appointment with Mrs. Bruce, she will pull books that match my interests. If my attitude transforms, reading books seems more doable. I access these assets by asking questions, seeking advice, and visiting the library. My purpose stands clear for library days, ask questions, look for books, make the match, and read!
Responsibility rules my focus for improvement regarding Positive Behavior Support Expectations. I know my teachers, peers, and parents have my back. My mom even mentioned reading the same book, so we can discuss it. My attitude augments concerning reading as I exhume responsible for a role model student in language arts. Responsibility, reading, requirement, who knew my life would be ruled by words beginning with r?
Saturday, April 19, 2008
What is Love?
Chinese authorities sentenced a young Uyghur writer, Nurmuhemmet Yasin, to 10 years’ imprisonment in 2005 for publishing a fable, “Wild Pigeon,” which was widely regarded as a veiled attack on Beijing’s rule in the northwestern province of Xinjiang.
The graves of two fabled Uyghur lovers. Photo: The Opposite End of China/Michael. D Manning
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According to Dolkun Kamberi, director of RFA’s Uyghur service, who translated the essay into English: “Yasin is a mature Uyghur young writer who already has established literary credentials among Uyghur readers. ‘Wild Pigeon’ is now making him well-known to a broader readership.”
Yasin has published numerous short stories, essays, and three volumes of poetry in recent years, garnering several literary awards. Some of his work has already been selected for inclusion in Uyghur-language middle-school literature textbooks.
After a closed trial in February 2005 at which he was not permitted to hire a lawyer, Yasin was sentenced by the Maralbeshi County People’s Court to 10 years in jail for inciting Uyghur separatism with “Wild Pigeon.” He was transferred in May 2005 to Urumqi No. 1 Prison, and has been permitted no visitors since his arrest.
What is love?
“What is love? This mystical, mythical question goes back to ancient times—without a coherent answer. Each person’s experience of love is uniquely varied, and each person’s understanding of love is different from the next. Love varies from one period to another along the length of a human life; a person can have many loves, but each experience will be different from the next. Summing it up, or pinning it down, are both impossible.
“Love is like a continually shattering mirror that always leaves behind images etched in people’s hearts; but it will itself remain a mystery forever.
“Many people give themselves over to this mystery, but while love can produce the most tender and delicate feelings in anyone’s soul, it alone can open a window in the hearts of a very few.
“A simple analogy might be that of spring water which satisfies an extremely thirsty soul. Imagine, in the intense heat of midsummer, a very thirsty shepherd, using both hands to scoop the running water from a roadside creek to drink with a joy that satisfies his thirst. Such a sensation is beyond compare.
This statue marks a Uyghur folk story of two lovers' tragic flight through Tiemenguan Pass. Photo: The Opposite End of China/Michael. D Manning
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A transformative process
“Similarly, when a tired and weary person returns home from far away, he says to himself, ‘Finally, I have come home,’ before stretching himself out on his bed to rest. This joy, too, is beyond compare. Again, when a writer who has been up all night working puts the last full-stop at the end of his article; this, too, is boundless consolation for the heart. These all are phenomena of love.
“In fact, love is a sort of deeply pleasing satisfaction, but with various manifestations. It defies explicit definition. Khalil Gibran gives us an extremely vivid description: ‘For even as love crowns you, so shall he crucify you. Even as he is for your growth so is he for your pruning. Even as he ascends to your height and caresses your tenderest branches that quiver in the sun, so shall he descend to your roots and shake them in their clinging to the earth. That is to say, love can occupy the deepest places of your mind, shake the foundations of your life, and force you to leave your native land. Like sheaves of corn he gathers you unto himself. He threshes you to make you naked. He sifts you to free you from your husks. He grinds you to whiteness. He kneads you until you are pliant; And then he assigns you to his sacred fire, that you may become sacred bread for God’s sacred feast.’
“Love is the kind of process described above; it makes you understand yourself. Only through this process, will you be able to become a soul, to become a part of life. Gibran uses a real life image to describe it, precisely because it is so difficult to give an explanation. A profound understanding of the process is even more difficult.
The graves of two fabled Uyghur lovers. Photo: The Opposite End of China/Michael. D Manning
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“Everybody has a different explanation and a different definition regarding the love they experience. The majority of people can suddenly fall in love with a stranger. If you ask them what they see in their lover, sometimes they can’t give you a clear answer. But the fact of their regard for each other is indisputable.
“Regardless of the secret mystery of love, it is a process in your feelings and in your heart. Love, too, always manifests itself in the body. Love will appear repeatedly in your life. In fact, the Gibran description of love is also talking about a solid, concrete form of love. Still other forms of love exist secretly in a human life.
'Performance of the self'
“Love is a kind of performance of the self, a satisfaction of the self; love is a kind of need, or is a much-needed satisfaction. Love is a kind of tendency toward both secret transformation and public transition. No matter what, if you fall in love with an actual person, you can feel your body making various unexpected changes. You might also realize that changes are taking place in your thoughts as never before.
“If this kind of phenomenon appears in your life, you may presume you are in love, for these phenomena are a form of love in themselves. Regardless of whether these phenomena last a long time or a short time, whether they are painful or enjoyable, they constitute riches, which will inscribe themselves in your heart forever.
“In brief, as a living human being with a soul, it is impossible not to fall in love in the course of a lifetime. Love is like the sunshine; no matter how tightly you shut down your heart, the sunlight will find a way to shine into it. Love’s process is unstoppable. Therefore, my advice would be: Don’t waste your precious time trying to define the meaning of love. The best definition is already in your own heart and mind.”
Maralbeshi County
Midnight. July 24, 2004
Original Uyghur essay by Nurmuhemmet Yasin. Translated by RFA Uyghur service director Dolkun Kamberi. Produced for the Web in English by Luisetta Mudie. Edited by Sarah Jackson-Han.
(http://www.rfa.org/english/uyghur/2006/05/23/uyghur_yasin/)
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